21 Days!!

This will be one of the few times I have actually counted down the days till my birthday. I don't do it often, and technically I'm not doing the counting this time, but my very good friend Emily is counting down for me.

I'm actually just really lucky, because my birthday happens to fall on the right day.

In 21 days I will be getting on a plane here in Amarillo bound for Dallas, and then flying off to New York. I technically will make the entire trip down there as an 18 year old, and not until we're probably doing dinner will I actually turn 19.

I'm super duper excited for my birthday, because, while I won't be with any of my friends from Amarillo, or my friends from UT (minus Sara, Mario, and Samantha), I'll get to spend it with some of the best friends I made in one of the shortest time spans, and many more people who I know will be just as awesome friends in an even quicker time period.

I'll be in New York, at Google, what more could I ask for. Ouch, and there it was. As I thought that I hurt because I really am moving so fast. This time last year I would have been upset that I didn't get to spend my birthday with my friends. Wait, I'm not explaining this right. Having three sets of friends that all exist in different places makes life hard. The fact that I get to spend my birthday with any of my friends is what makes it amazing. It would be just as amazing if I stayed in town and had those friends over, or if I ended up somewhere and had the UT friends over. I love all of them so much, and none of them could ever be replaced.

I think that's my favorite part about this whole thing, the Google camps, the college scene, the whole of life in general. It's the way I can meet someone, who I know absolutely nothing about, and over time (long or short) I'll grow to need them in someway. I need Brison to nerd out properly over things like X-Men. I need Cathy to inspire me to read. I need Emily to count down the days till I see her again. I need Chelsea to always know what to say. I need Eric to remind me that you're only as tall as your heart will let you be. I need Beth to be sour, but one of the sweetest people I know. I need everyone to help make me who I am today, a Blue, who is Such A Blue.

My life has sort of sped up a lot in the past few weeks, and I think I'm still kind of trying to deny that fact. I need to stop though, because the longer I deny it the more time I lose to thinking this way. There's a ton of stuff I want to do, that doesn't include video games or TV Shows, but that's what I spend time doing, because people happen to be busy, which I can't blame them for. I just feel like I'm not trying hard enough to maintain what I have here, and with new friendships popping up I'm having trouble feeling good about wanting to make those friendships stronger and not even spending time with the current friends.

It's weird, I know, and it might make sense to you, but even if it doesn't I'm fine. I know how I need to go about fixing this stuff, it's just a lot of work.

New York in 21 days. Birthday in 21 days. Google in 21 days. Birthday party at home in 27 days. Possible Brawl tournament in 33 or 34 days. Movie Premiere of No Such Thing As Monsters in 43 days.

=D