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Ok, so I blogged yesterday, but the substance of this blog is a billion times more important.

I hope that by the end of this you will share it with as many people as you can. My hope is that after reading this you too will feel the emotions that I am currently feeling.

If you know me, you know I've had a great life. Don't misread any of this. I don't think I would change anything about me, or my experiences, because everything I've done has helped to build me as the person I am today. To be a little vain, I like who I am.

What I want though is for you to understand the intense emotions I am currently feeling. There is something about today, and I don't know what it is, or why today, but I know this is right.

I finally listened to Katy Perry's song Firework, and to truly understand this I have to give some back story.

I don't like Lady Gaga. I don't like Ke$ha (I hate spelling it with the $). I usually dislike Katy Perry, but not as much as the rest of them.

Reasons?
First, I despise what they choose to sing about. I'm a man of morals, and have a bad habit of disliking someone who is immoral. Don't take that the wrong way. If you want to, shoot me a message. William.Combs@hotmail.com . That's the one I check all the time, and I would love to get into that with you, but that's not the point of this blog.

Second, I don't think they're very respectable role models. This really ties in with my other point. Haha.

Ok, so you get why I don't like them.

Katy Perry, may have enforced my belief in mankind, in humanity. I'm not even a little lying here, or exaggerating.

If you know me, you also know that I have this intense belief that people are inherently good. I don't know when that came about, because for as long as I can remember I remember thinking that. I blame video games, but I think it's more of me thanking video games. I honestly love who I am.

Sometimes, however, I find myself feeling defeated I guess you could say. I'll be confronted by someone who hasn't had what I have, and I feel incapable of consoling them, because I don't know what it feels like to be in their shoes. I find myself faced with situations where everything around me screams to stop believing in people. To understand that people will be evil.

But I can't. I won't. I refuse. Till the day I die, I will harbor this love for people. It's what keeps me going in the mornings. Also, I'm not perfect. Shocker! I have days, just like any human, where everything is completely against me. Where I have to cry myself to sleep. It sucks, I know. I have days where my parents and I don't click. Where I will forcibly make them mad so they'll let Lindsey off the hook they're so mad at me. I have days where I'm tired of listening, and finally voice what I've been feeling, and things go south quick. I have seen days where all I can do is hold Lindsey, and pray that she gets a good night of sleep. I've had to hold things in, and pray that they stay that way.

So, you know me now. A good picture of me anyway. Me, being completely honest with you.

How does this tie in with Katy Perry?

Firework.

I have listened to that song a billion times since I heard it. It's not her usual song. It's good. I mean, really good. There is one scene in the video that gets me. It's of the boy, crouching next to his sister, while their parents argue out in the hall. That one hits home. (My parents are awesome, and love each other. They're great people.)

However, it still hits home, and I have sat here and cried while watching it.

The reason I keep watching, is because I honestly believe this will do some good. This song, will reach a ton of people, and a lot of people will be affected by it. I really like that. She is using her fame, her influence, and spreading hope to a load of people who don't know what that is.

That's what I want to be. I want to be a beacon of hope, a light in the darkness. I want to be able to be influential, just so I can spread a message of hope. I want to have money, just so I can give it away. I want a big house, just so I can offer people a place to stay for the night, free of charge. I want to walk down the streets in Austin, and be able to hand out money/food to the people who don't have anything. I want to be able to listen to the broken, and have the power to mend them.

Please, understand, that I am in a solid place right now. I'm not crying out for attention. I just want you to see me, so that you can better see my message, my plea.

Please, have hope in tomorrow. Have hope in mankind. Have hope in yourself.

That is all I have ever wanted, and all I will continue to want.

Believe in yourself, and don't ever let your light be extinguished.