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If you're reading this than you probably heard about what happened at UT.

Well, here's the deal.

There was a "shooter" on campus today. He fired some shots at a fountain, and then ran into the Perry-Castaneda Library, where he proceeded to shoot himself. He didn't injure anyone, and everyone at UT is safe.

There's probably more to the story, and you would probably be better off checking the news and what not. I'm pretty sure he was a Sophomore Math major.

I wasn't ever really scared by the whole situation, or at least at first glance I wasn't. I generally trust that the police and everybody involved will handle the situation and keep us safe. However, I think my Criminal Minds watching had me a bit on edge. Not anything too bad in the neighborhood of freaking out. I was just a bit unnerved thinking about why everything that happened was happening, expecting there to be something everyone was missing.

Well, they let us out to go eat, after everything had basically been cleared, but they still wanted us to stay in the dorm building. Well, I was walking past, and walked past a window that looked out at the PCL, and I did one of those crazy scenario enactments in my head. I had just got done telling some people I was alright, and everything was fine, and as I walked past the window, I envisioned myself getting shot, and all I could think was that there was a whole list of people that I hadn't told I loved.

Blue of me, right? Well, I didn't get shot, and so I came away from today with one thing on my heart. That I needed to make sure I didn't feel that, ever. That if my time were to come, I would know that there wasn't any bridges I had missed the chance to mend, or even strengthen. I would want to know that I had the best relationships I could ask for, and that I wouldn't regret anything. I would want to know that I took every chance I had to express my love for the people I know, and the people I didn't know.

Only God can know why things happen, or the reason for what he does, but sometimes I think we can have a pretty good idea about what his intentions were.

Today, I think I got the message, and I don't plan on letting it go to waste.


P.S. I am so very blessed to have each and every one of you as a friend, and don't know how I'd ever get anywhere without you guys. I love you. Unconditionally, Irrevocably Love you. Thanks, for everything.