This will be one of the few times I have actually counted down the days till my birthday. I don't do it often, and technically I'm not doing the counting this time, but my very good friend Emily is counting down for me.
I'm actually just really lucky, because my birthday happens to fall on the right day.
In 21 days I will be getting on a plane here in Amarillo bound for Dallas, and then flying off to New York. I technically will make the entire trip down there as an 18 year old, and not until we're probably doing dinner will I actually turn 19.
I'm super duper excited for my birthday, because, while I won't be with any of my friends from Amarillo, or my friends from UT (minus Sara, Mario, and Samantha), I'll get to spend it with some of the best friends I made in one of the shortest time spans, and many more people who I know will be just as awesome friends in an even quicker time period.
I'll be in New York, at Google, what more could I ask for. Ouch, and there it was. As I thought that I hurt because I really am moving so fast. This time last year I would have been upset that I didn't get to spend my birthday with my friends. Wait, I'm not explaining this right. Having three sets of friends that all exist in different places makes life hard. The fact that I get to spend my birthday with any of my friends is what makes it amazing. It would be just as amazing if I stayed in town and had those friends over, or if I ended up somewhere and had the UT friends over. I love all of them so much, and none of them could ever be replaced.
I think that's my favorite part about this whole thing, the Google camps, the college scene, the whole of life in general. It's the way I can meet someone, who I know absolutely nothing about, and over time (long or short) I'll grow to need them in someway. I need Brison to nerd out properly over things like X-Men. I need Cathy to inspire me to read. I need Emily to count down the days till I see her again. I need Chelsea to always know what to say. I need Eric to remind me that you're only as tall as your heart will let you be. I need Beth to be sour, but one of the sweetest people I know. I need everyone to help make me who I am today, a Blue, who is Such A Blue.
My life has sort of sped up a lot in the past few weeks, and I think I'm still kind of trying to deny that fact. I need to stop though, because the longer I deny it the more time I lose to thinking this way. There's a ton of stuff I want to do, that doesn't include video games or TV Shows, but that's what I spend time doing, because people happen to be busy, which I can't blame them for. I just feel like I'm not trying hard enough to maintain what I have here, and with new friendships popping up I'm having trouble feeling good about wanting to make those friendships stronger and not even spending time with the current friends.
It's weird, I know, and it might make sense to you, but even if it doesn't I'm fine. I know how I need to go about fixing this stuff, it's just a lot of work.
New York in 21 days. Birthday in 21 days. Google in 21 days. Birthday party at home in 27 days. Possible Brawl tournament in 33 or 34 days. Movie Premiere of No Such Thing As Monsters in 43 days.
=D
Monday, June 27, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
I Should Be Sleeping
I turned my laptop off and everything, with the idea that I was going to go to sleep, but then my mind started wandering, and I couldn't.
My life has recently sped up, a lot. I went from a casual painting job, and then hanging out whenever anyone was free, and then helping with found for Brian's next film, to possibly having a job at United, and finishing painting so they can put the floors in, and still film, and getting to know everyone going to FUSE, and learning legit Brawl skills from Dakota who Brian introduced me to.
Let's go with... FUSE first. You guys don't know anything about pre CSSI, but this right here is a lot like it. 30 more people, but still the whole getting to know everyone, favorite movie, etc... It's going to be one of the best weeks ever, all these people sound legit. I'm going to miss everyone that isn't returning, and Kat and Caroline and Jessica, but I get to meet a ton of super awesome people! Gah! I love this feeling!
Now for Smash Bros. Brian works with Dakota, who is a ranked competitive Brawl player. So, naturally Brian has been telling me all about him. Well, I had the chance to actually meet Dakota earlier and play a few games with him. OHMUHGAHBBQIDIEDSOMANYTIMESHEISRIDICULOUS! But really. He spent the majority of the hour teaching me crazy techniques and the rest of the time destroying me. I'm used to the losing part, it was just a lot to take in. I plan to continue playing with them as long as they will let me, and hopefully getting better... It's possible somewhat. Haha.
And now I try that sleep thing again. Night!
Friday, June 17, 2011
Back In The Habit
It's been a while since I've blogged normally. The last two have been about friends/me, and there was a good long break in between those two.
My Summer has sort of consisted of a real job. I've been helping my mom's friend paint the interior of her house. It's a job, haha. Other than that, I've been appointed sound guy for my friend Brian's next big film. It's an interesting story. My friend and I introduced Doctor Who to another of our friends, so we've been watching with him when we can. I've also been watching Sherlock, and Firefly. Well, I already watched Sherlock. There are 3 episodes out, and it doesn't come back till the fall.
I went to the midnight premiere of X-Men First Class. It was good, I enjoyed it, but I had a lot of complaints as far as the actual story goes. They picked the wrong Angel! Gahhh! Anyway, there is a new X-Men game that should be coming out around the Holiday season, and I'm super excited for it. It should be the game I've been wanting in a super powered game for a while.
I have a new celebrity crush, and it's Jewel Staite who plays Kaylee in Firefly. She's awesome, and optimistic, and always cheerful. =D
Linz recently rented LA Noire, and we've solved several crimes/caused several thousand dollars of damage over the past couple of days. It's really addicting.
I'ma go, because I'm only half working on this, and trying to sum up my whole Summer so far. =D
Night guys!
My Summer has sort of consisted of a real job. I've been helping my mom's friend paint the interior of her house. It's a job, haha. Other than that, I've been appointed sound guy for my friend Brian's next big film. It's an interesting story. My friend and I introduced Doctor Who to another of our friends, so we've been watching with him when we can. I've also been watching Sherlock, and Firefly. Well, I already watched Sherlock. There are 3 episodes out, and it doesn't come back till the fall.
I went to the midnight premiere of X-Men First Class. It was good, I enjoyed it, but I had a lot of complaints as far as the actual story goes. They picked the wrong Angel! Gahhh! Anyway, there is a new X-Men game that should be coming out around the Holiday season, and I'm super excited for it. It should be the game I've been wanting in a super powered game for a while.
I have a new celebrity crush, and it's Jewel Staite who plays Kaylee in Firefly. She's awesome, and optimistic, and always cheerful. =D
Linz recently rented LA Noire, and we've solved several crimes/caused several thousand dollars of damage over the past couple of days. It's really addicting.
I'ma go, because I'm only half working on this, and trying to sum up my whole Summer so far. =D
Night guys!
Friday, June 10, 2011
William Combs 101
So, in ze last post I went all "here are my super awesome college friends and I couldn't have made it through the year without them"-crazy. It was a big fantastic post 100, and again I apologize to anyone I left off. There was so much more I could have said and wanted to, but had to drive and readjust to being home.
Anyway, new post talky time. =P
The stereotypical introduction courses is generally titled "(Insert Subject Name Here) 101". I figure it's kind of fitting for me to do a crash course in me. To help myself, and you understand me a little bit better.
First, I'm going to answer a few questions people asked via Facebook. Mainly a bunch of Favorites and such, but that's not a bad starting point, so here goes.
Favorites:
Color: Green. Not exactly sure where it came from, but Green is my absolute favorite color. Period. My room is painted green, after years of wishing it were, and as I write this I am wearing a completely green outfit, cause I'm that cool. If I had to pick a reason for Green I would probably go with my equating that to Elves/Centaurs and such. I'm a huge fan of those so that could possible be where it came from. Is green ever related to magic, because that might be why as well...
Food: Meal-wise I would probably have to say Burritos. Bean and Cheese for the win, unless it's some amazing Barbacoa because that stuff is like heaven in a tortilla (with beans and cheese also). A close second would probably have to be enchiladas, and only if they are the ones my family makes because those are golden. We could probably make lots of money if we had a restaurant that was all about those enchiladas. Oh geeze, my Mexican is showing.
Memory as a Child: This one is sort of a best more than a favorite. When I was in elementary school my friends and I had these super awesome ideas for a video game/comic/manga/anime. What better way to understand the story than by immersing ourselves in it, so we would run around in my backyard, on the playground at school, and just about anywhere else playing this game. I couldn't help but make my character a fast, magical, wise Elf with a whip (thank you Yu-Yu-Hakusho) named Murcielago who fought from the back with his spells. My friend Cody was the almost as fast, energy, silly, flying Mayhanna (a race of humanoid people who had tails) named Meeko who fights with a sword and super awesome energy attacks.. My other friend Erik was the slow, physical, serious, defensive Sunnian (a race of humanoid people who lived on suns) named Azome who ran the forge and smashed our opponents with his epic strength. That's a bad description of their characters, but it's really for another time I think. Basically, we would enact these whole scenarios and train and then fight bosses, and save planets, and come up with new story arcs, and have guest appearances (My Sister Lindsey with her character Lightning, the daughter of Zeus and some non-goddess, who was really good with potions).
TV Personality I Would Love to Make Disappear: I do not know how to answer this question. Honestly. I don't watch enough TV I guess. I mean, I could name characters from shows I would love to see gone, and even some musicians, but can't think of a TV personality. So, I guess no one.
Music: Ummm... I... Music is hard for me... I like a lot of stuff... And it changes depending on my mood... So, I'll leave that be for now because I think there's an artist one someone asked about later. I guess I'll say that the only music I don't like is the majority of Rap music, and most anything that cusses in it. Yea, weirdo over here. After thinking about this for a while, I can safely say that my favorite music genre is video game soundtracks. Those are pure beauty. =D
Childhood Friend: I don't have a childhood friend I liked more than everyone else. The two I would pick, based on how much I enjoyed hanging out with them then and how much I still hang out with them, are Cody and Erik. They're the same ones I mentioned earlier with the game we used to play as kids. Of all my friends, they've been there the longest just about, and I wouldn't trade them for the world. They are uber fantastic.
Artist: I'm not going to lie, I don't know a lot of legit artists. I couldn't tell you all the classical painters or anything, but I do have a few artists whom I really like. I love the artists for Kingdom Hearts, and for Final Fantasy, and the Star Ocean. Every single time I'm playing through one of those games, and many others, I am taken aback by how beautiful everything is done. I can't help but love all the comic artists who have ever done a Marvel or DC comic, because even though I don't actively read them I appreciate all the effort that went into those. I certainly love Brooke, and Lynn, and Ann, because they do things with a piece of paper and a pencil that I only dream of doing. Musical Artist-wise, I love Relient K, Hawk Nelson, Utada Hikaru, Vanessa Carlton and Vanessa Peters. I listen to more, but I can always listen to any of these to make my day better.
Store: Express. Only because every single time I walk into that store I find a billion things I wish I could wear. They're clothes are so legit, and I think I may be in love with them. =P GameStop. Does it need saying? I could probably live off of those two stores, assuming restaurants and food places don't count as stores. =D
Candy/Cookie: Reese's. Sugar Cookies. Yea, I love me some Chocolate and Peanut Butter! I really enjoy eating the inside of the Reese's Cup first, and then eating the outer portion. Haha. As for Sugar Cookies, those are just simple and amazing! Haha.
Book: I'm going to do Series for this, because I can't pick just one. The Lost Years of Merlin. I read them so long ago, and don't remember a lot of what was in them, but I will never forget how eager I was to read all of the books in the series. I'm picky when it comes to reading, and I couldn't set these books down. Ahhh! So much awesomeness! Also, the Redwall books were pretty legit.
TV Show: I adore Merlin. I love how they are telling the story in such a different light. It's not really accurate, but it's interesting, and they pull it off really well. It doesn't help that Merlin, whom I wish to one day be more like, is played perfectly. I love how the show, while about Merlin and magic, isn't all about magic... Even though it kind of is... It's about the characters and their growth, which I love in any show. Definitely Sherlock. It's newer, and only 3 episodes exist, but boy are they good episodes. I was a fan of Sherlock when I was little, and always will be. Ah! I realized the other day that I tend to like British shows more than American shows. Also, I like shows when the main character is someone I want to be more like. I like to think that in some ways I resemble Merlin, or Sherlock. Just a little. =D
Season: I really enjoy a good Fall, or maybe Spring. Winter is known for being too cold, and Summer is way too hot. With Spring and Fall you get that nice transition weather that results in you being able to wear anything and be completely comfortable.
Day of the Week: This is a bit harder. I like Wednesdays. By Wednesday you're over despising that the weekend is over, and you're ready to be in class and learn. Also, you're not quite fed up with classes yet, because you've only had 2 days so far. It's just perfectly in the middle so that you're not too tired with the week or too frustrated, but ready to take on the day.
Holiday: I am a fan of Christmas. Mainly because I really enjoy how people are around that time of year. Aside from the crazy shopping hysteria, people are generally better people around this time. I like that something as small as a holiday can bring out the best in people, even though I hate that they don't stay that way.
Animal: I have three favorite animals. My favorite animal that lives in water is a dolphin. They're just so beautiful, and how could you not love them. My favorite land animal is a fox. I go back and forth sometimes, but it's generally a fox. They're just amazing to me. My favorite animal that can fly is the falcon or hawk. It depends on the day really. They're both so very intriguing.
Ice Cream: Vanilla. It's plain, sure, but it's really tasty. Never underestimate the simplicity of something, because sometimes the most simple thing is more complex than you could imagine. I also really like Sea Salt. I tried it over Spring Break in Dallas this year, and it was surprisingly amazing. Thank you Kingdom Hearts for introducing me to it.
Seasoning: I'm going to say salt, because I can't think of any else. Haha.
X-Man: Why do you ask questions like this! Gah! Gambit... Storm... Angel... First things first, I can not help but love the idea of having epic wings growing out of my back. If that were my mutation it would make my whole life complete. It still pains me that he was looked over for First Class, and that they made him very minor in the one movie he appeared in. Gambit is just epic. You can not tell me he isn't in any way one of the most epic characters in the X-Men Universe. Aside from Origins: Wolverine, he's been great every time he appears in something. Then you've got Storm. She's... How do you even begin to describe her? She tries to pick Xavier's pocket, joins the X-Men and becomes third in charge behind Xavier and Scott. She is revered as a goddess in Africa, and kind of is one. She's strong, and so kind hearted. I could nerd out for long periods of time over these three. Oh, and I still have wings, and all the pieces for my Angel outfit. I'm that cool.
Pokemon: I think I have to say Squirtle here. He was my first pokemon, and will always be mine. That's the best way I can put that. I love the little guy. =D
Liberal Artsy: I can not pick a favorite Liberal Arts major. I know of only 3 people who are Liberal Arts people. I love each of them immensely, and wouldn't trade any of them. I apologize for my lack of a favorite here, but it is quite impossible. You've just got too much awesomeness pouring out of each of them that it's impossible to say one is better.
Memory From Past Year: Ouch. Another hard one. Also, another one that I will most definitely be cheating on by picking multiple memories. The past year has been crazy, consisting of Google and College, both of which made the year what it was. One of the Saturday's when I was in California, with Google, they set us free in San Francisco for a day. We had so much fun, and I remember being thankful Kasra had GPS on his phone, because otherwise we would have been lost. We took a ton of pictures, and sang Lion King on almost every bus we were on. When we were leaving the Golden Gate bridge everyone decided to sing Happy Birthday to me, even though it wasn't, and a lot of the people on the bus joined in which made it that much better. Overall, that was one of the most exciting days from that trip. I don't know how to explain why, it was just perfect. Another great memory was in October. I'd only been away at college for a few months, but it felt like ages since I'd seen anyone. In October, a lot of my friends decided they were going to meet up in Dallas and hang out for a weekend. Summer and I decided to head up there, and I'm so glad we did. Seeing everyone was amazing, and even though we got back at midnight that Sunday/Monday it was totally worth it. I was having a hard time coping with college, and seeing everyone really helped. From this last semester I would probably have to go with... Our last little hoo-rah in Austin. There are so many crazy awesome memories, but there at the end it was once again perfect. People either take a while to find a place in my life, or they are immediately key to it, and this whole group was key the moment I met them. Playing games, watching movies, snacking, watching people study... Perfect! =D
TV Show: Wait, I already did this. Yea, but I forgot Doctor Who. Oh-mah-gah! Doctor Who is so amazing. It's more than just a man saving the day, traveling through space and time, and that's why I enjoy it so much. There is almost always some sort of idea I can take away from each episode to make myself better with, and that's really why I love it as much as I do.
Ginger in Said Show, and Who She Reminds Me Of: I'm just doing this to humor you Chelsea. My favorite Ginger would have to be Donna Noble. She's such a great character, and her spirit really livens the show I think. As for Amelia Pond, I'm quite the fan of her. She's just as feisty as Donna, which may be part of the reason why I like her so much. They're both great characters, and I loved when Donna was there, and currently love Amy being there. And Amelia doesn't honestly remind me of anyone in real life, but Chelsea is Amelia Pond in my phone. =D
Favorite Video Game: Kingdom Hearts. I was expecting this to be hard, and I've been thinking about it, but it really is Kingdom Hearts hands down. The story is amazing, the art is breath taking, the music is beautiful, and Sora is every bit the man I want to be... Or kid. He's who I aspire to be more like every day.
That's it with the Best/Favorites.
Let's see, I have come to terms with Corey being beautiful, I am right handed, I love swimming, I've only ever worked as a sacker at Albertsons, I have one dog named Diamond, I went to this Summer Camp thing with Google last Summer and am going to a different Google thing this Summer (on my birthday), I am mostly a Blue (Caring and such), my dream vacation would probably be to Disney World or somewhere in Japan because I love Japan and Disney, the animal that I think best describes me is a monkey because I can be serious and pensive or playful and curious, and I prefer books, music, and movies (I think each one brings something new to the board and each of those can make you re-evaluate yourself so you can grow).
Then, my mother asked, "What kind of girl would win your heart and make you throw your jacket over a puddle for her to walk across?"
I would probably throw my jacket over a puddle for most girls to walk across anyway, just to be nice. However, the girl that would win my heart would be a girl who is smart, a girl with ideas and ideals. Someone who I could learn from every time I was with them, and someone who could never cease to make me smile. That's vague, I know, but I never really think about this much, so that's what I've got.
So that's that. I've spent a couple weeks working on answering all that, and putting together my own little about me. What I write here is a compilation of who I see myself as, and who I strive to be, something I can look at and hold myself to while also being able to remember where I was at this time.
I'm way too trusting. Seriously, and I know it, but I would rather trust someone and then get burned than not trust the person I needed to. Sounds a bit off, even by my standards, but it's true. I'm not stupid trusting though, I'm not going to walk down a dark alley in a strange country and expect the crowd dressed all in black not to do anything. It's hard to explain, but you tell me you can't hang out because you have to do something for your parents, and I will believe you and hold that word as law until you post the pictures of you hanging out with someone else. Even after you do that I won't hold it against you, because I know I'm kind of a boring person sometimes, and you can have a heck of a lot more fun if you go hang out with those friends that aren't weird and... Sheltered like me. Which, I'm ok with. I like being sheltered, and I love not being the party/club type, and I couldn't imagine what I'd do to myself if I ever once actually cussed, and I'm not planning on ever drinking anything alcoholic just because I don't want to or like the stigma that comes with it, and I will never willingly put a cigarette/cigar in my mouth and smoke it, and drugs are something that you won't ever see me doing as long as I'm alive, and as for sex... When I get married, and never before that. I don't mean to sound like people who do any of this are bad people. I would say show me someone who didn't cuss, but I already know 3 other people who don't, and they're some of the coolest people ever. Anyway, I'm not here to point a finger at anyone, because every single time in my life I could point a finger at someone I know I could find several reasons to point a finger at myself. On that topic, I'm a bit of a hypocrite... So which of this am I being a hypocrite about. The not judging part... And more, but mainly the judging part. I hate it, and can't stand it, but I do it. I can't help it, I just do, and it takes a while for me to move past it and stop judging, but I usually do. Sometimes though it's a good sort of judging in a way... Like, I was able to use it to find me my friends at UT, and boy did they turn out to be the best. I'm broken though, and if it's late enough, and quiet enough I realize it, but I go on. I keep trucking, and finding things in life that mend me, and I pray when I think about it, because as much as I would love to say I always do I don't, but when I do it's from the heart, and I believe without a doubt that God is listening, and he's always going to be there when I need him. I'm terrified by the idea that one of these days I'll hit that point when I realize I'm not as smart as I thought, and I can't imagine what I'll do then, what I'll do when I don't know what comes next, how to take the next step. I've never once doubted my character though, my thoughts, my mindset. Where did all of this come from, how did I decided I would never cuss, or that I was going to accept anyone anyway they are. I've been told I'll grow up, and that one day I'll learn and wisen up, but I can't help but think every single thought that runs through my head, every single moral in me is part of God's plan. Also, I don't think there is anything unwise about seeing the best in people, in being willing to overlook something to see that inside they are a good person. I don't agree with anyone who says man is basically evil, because I believe without any sort of shadow of a doubt that man is entirely good, and it's once they enter this world that evil starts to enter them. Humans are born good, and we are essentially good, it's not until we start letting the world have it's way that evil enters into us, and it's not until you succumb to that evil that you become evil. I also believe that you can't blame someone who has only ever seen one side of the story. If someone grows up and is only ever told killing is good, and they see death around them, and every piece of writing condones it, and their parents tell them it's good, then you can't necessarily blame them. They've been manipulated, and if you were born under those conditions you would be the exact same way, and so would I. It's just a fact of life, and I will not blame them for that, rather believe that there is a way that it can be fixed. I'm missing something, I know it, but this is a big stream of consciousness with breaks thrown in as I switch the tab to gather my thoughts. It's staring me in the face, and I've already alluded to it, but I can't remember when. Acceptance! I listened to a great family friend, the type who I would trust with anything talk the other day and it broke my heart. I look up to her, and always have, but the world has made her cynical. Understandable, but saddening. She was talking about how bad public school is, and maybe it is, but I loved it, and I could very well be only remembering the good things, but that's not bad at all. Anyway, she was talking about the whole "homosexual" issue, and I don't see that as an issue any more than I see "heterosexuality", which is people who are sexually driven. Either side, it doesn't matter, if there is a love between two people, and they want to get married, and be with each other, I'm fine with that. The guys who sleep with as many people as they can, and the girls who wake up in a different bed every morning are the ones that bother me. Sorry, but I'm really not... I think that a guy kissing his girlfriend in public is fine, but I don't want to see more than that, and the same goes for two girls or two guys. As long as it's love, enjoy.
I love magic, because the possibilities are endless. Dreams. The day I stop dreaming, is the day I stop existing. I'd rather be a dreamer who is let down by life, than a realist who never moves forward because it's not realistic enough. I don't see the point of being here if it isn't to dream. And no dreamers aren't stupid. A dreamer can be as, if not more, logical than a realist any day.
I'm done. My mind is racing now, and I can't get a grip on any key points for me to hit, so I'm done. That's the crash course in me, and I'm sure it took a while to read, cause I ramble a lot. I apologize for that. I need sleep, bad. Goodnight, and I'm sorry for overloading you with so much text with this post. I should be back to normal sized posts after this. I'm really off now, night.
Anyway, new post talky time. =P
The stereotypical introduction courses is generally titled "(Insert Subject Name Here) 101". I figure it's kind of fitting for me to do a crash course in me. To help myself, and you understand me a little bit better.
First, I'm going to answer a few questions people asked via Facebook. Mainly a bunch of Favorites and such, but that's not a bad starting point, so here goes.
Favorites:
Color: Green. Not exactly sure where it came from, but Green is my absolute favorite color. Period. My room is painted green, after years of wishing it were, and as I write this I am wearing a completely green outfit, cause I'm that cool. If I had to pick a reason for Green I would probably go with my equating that to Elves/Centaurs and such. I'm a huge fan of those so that could possible be where it came from. Is green ever related to magic, because that might be why as well...
Food: Meal-wise I would probably have to say Burritos. Bean and Cheese for the win, unless it's some amazing Barbacoa because that stuff is like heaven in a tortilla (with beans and cheese also). A close second would probably have to be enchiladas, and only if they are the ones my family makes because those are golden. We could probably make lots of money if we had a restaurant that was all about those enchiladas. Oh geeze, my Mexican is showing.
Memory as a Child: This one is sort of a best more than a favorite. When I was in elementary school my friends and I had these super awesome ideas for a video game/comic/manga/anime. What better way to understand the story than by immersing ourselves in it, so we would run around in my backyard, on the playground at school, and just about anywhere else playing this game. I couldn't help but make my character a fast, magical, wise Elf with a whip (thank you Yu-Yu-Hakusho) named Murcielago who fought from the back with his spells. My friend Cody was the almost as fast, energy, silly, flying Mayhanna (a race of humanoid people who had tails) named Meeko who fights with a sword and super awesome energy attacks.. My other friend Erik was the slow, physical, serious, defensive Sunnian (a race of humanoid people who lived on suns) named Azome who ran the forge and smashed our opponents with his epic strength. That's a bad description of their characters, but it's really for another time I think. Basically, we would enact these whole scenarios and train and then fight bosses, and save planets, and come up with new story arcs, and have guest appearances (My Sister Lindsey with her character Lightning, the daughter of Zeus and some non-goddess, who was really good with potions).
TV Personality I Would Love to Make Disappear: I do not know how to answer this question. Honestly. I don't watch enough TV I guess. I mean, I could name characters from shows I would love to see gone, and even some musicians, but can't think of a TV personality. So, I guess no one.
Music: Ummm... I... Music is hard for me... I like a lot of stuff... And it changes depending on my mood... So, I'll leave that be for now because I think there's an artist one someone asked about later. I guess I'll say that the only music I don't like is the majority of Rap music, and most anything that cusses in it. Yea, weirdo over here. After thinking about this for a while, I can safely say that my favorite music genre is video game soundtracks. Those are pure beauty. =D
Childhood Friend: I don't have a childhood friend I liked more than everyone else. The two I would pick, based on how much I enjoyed hanging out with them then and how much I still hang out with them, are Cody and Erik. They're the same ones I mentioned earlier with the game we used to play as kids. Of all my friends, they've been there the longest just about, and I wouldn't trade them for the world. They are uber fantastic.
Artist: I'm not going to lie, I don't know a lot of legit artists. I couldn't tell you all the classical painters or anything, but I do have a few artists whom I really like. I love the artists for Kingdom Hearts, and for Final Fantasy, and the Star Ocean. Every single time I'm playing through one of those games, and many others, I am taken aback by how beautiful everything is done. I can't help but love all the comic artists who have ever done a Marvel or DC comic, because even though I don't actively read them I appreciate all the effort that went into those. I certainly love Brooke, and Lynn, and Ann, because they do things with a piece of paper and a pencil that I only dream of doing. Musical Artist-wise, I love Relient K, Hawk Nelson, Utada Hikaru, Vanessa Carlton and Vanessa Peters. I listen to more, but I can always listen to any of these to make my day better.
Store: Express. Only because every single time I walk into that store I find a billion things I wish I could wear. They're clothes are so legit, and I think I may be in love with them. =P GameStop. Does it need saying? I could probably live off of those two stores, assuming restaurants and food places don't count as stores. =D
Candy/Cookie: Reese's. Sugar Cookies. Yea, I love me some Chocolate and Peanut Butter! I really enjoy eating the inside of the Reese's Cup first, and then eating the outer portion. Haha. As for Sugar Cookies, those are just simple and amazing! Haha.
Book: I'm going to do Series for this, because I can't pick just one. The Lost Years of Merlin. I read them so long ago, and don't remember a lot of what was in them, but I will never forget how eager I was to read all of the books in the series. I'm picky when it comes to reading, and I couldn't set these books down. Ahhh! So much awesomeness! Also, the Redwall books were pretty legit.
TV Show: I adore Merlin. I love how they are telling the story in such a different light. It's not really accurate, but it's interesting, and they pull it off really well. It doesn't help that Merlin, whom I wish to one day be more like, is played perfectly. I love how the show, while about Merlin and magic, isn't all about magic... Even though it kind of is... It's about the characters and their growth, which I love in any show. Definitely Sherlock. It's newer, and only 3 episodes exist, but boy are they good episodes. I was a fan of Sherlock when I was little, and always will be. Ah! I realized the other day that I tend to like British shows more than American shows. Also, I like shows when the main character is someone I want to be more like. I like to think that in some ways I resemble Merlin, or Sherlock. Just a little. =D
Season: I really enjoy a good Fall, or maybe Spring. Winter is known for being too cold, and Summer is way too hot. With Spring and Fall you get that nice transition weather that results in you being able to wear anything and be completely comfortable.
Day of the Week: This is a bit harder. I like Wednesdays. By Wednesday you're over despising that the weekend is over, and you're ready to be in class and learn. Also, you're not quite fed up with classes yet, because you've only had 2 days so far. It's just perfectly in the middle so that you're not too tired with the week or too frustrated, but ready to take on the day.
Holiday: I am a fan of Christmas. Mainly because I really enjoy how people are around that time of year. Aside from the crazy shopping hysteria, people are generally better people around this time. I like that something as small as a holiday can bring out the best in people, even though I hate that they don't stay that way.
Animal: I have three favorite animals. My favorite animal that lives in water is a dolphin. They're just so beautiful, and how could you not love them. My favorite land animal is a fox. I go back and forth sometimes, but it's generally a fox. They're just amazing to me. My favorite animal that can fly is the falcon or hawk. It depends on the day really. They're both so very intriguing.
Ice Cream: Vanilla. It's plain, sure, but it's really tasty. Never underestimate the simplicity of something, because sometimes the most simple thing is more complex than you could imagine. I also really like Sea Salt. I tried it over Spring Break in Dallas this year, and it was surprisingly amazing. Thank you Kingdom Hearts for introducing me to it.
Seasoning: I'm going to say salt, because I can't think of any else. Haha.
X-Man: Why do you ask questions like this! Gah! Gambit... Storm... Angel... First things first, I can not help but love the idea of having epic wings growing out of my back. If that were my mutation it would make my whole life complete. It still pains me that he was looked over for First Class, and that they made him very minor in the one movie he appeared in. Gambit is just epic. You can not tell me he isn't in any way one of the most epic characters in the X-Men Universe. Aside from Origins: Wolverine, he's been great every time he appears in something. Then you've got Storm. She's... How do you even begin to describe her? She tries to pick Xavier's pocket, joins the X-Men and becomes third in charge behind Xavier and Scott. She is revered as a goddess in Africa, and kind of is one. She's strong, and so kind hearted. I could nerd out for long periods of time over these three. Oh, and I still have wings, and all the pieces for my Angel outfit. I'm that cool.
Pokemon: I think I have to say Squirtle here. He was my first pokemon, and will always be mine. That's the best way I can put that. I love the little guy. =D
Liberal Artsy: I can not pick a favorite Liberal Arts major. I know of only 3 people who are Liberal Arts people. I love each of them immensely, and wouldn't trade any of them. I apologize for my lack of a favorite here, but it is quite impossible. You've just got too much awesomeness pouring out of each of them that it's impossible to say one is better.
Memory From Past Year: Ouch. Another hard one. Also, another one that I will most definitely be cheating on by picking multiple memories. The past year has been crazy, consisting of Google and College, both of which made the year what it was. One of the Saturday's when I was in California, with Google, they set us free in San Francisco for a day. We had so much fun, and I remember being thankful Kasra had GPS on his phone, because otherwise we would have been lost. We took a ton of pictures, and sang Lion King on almost every bus we were on. When we were leaving the Golden Gate bridge everyone decided to sing Happy Birthday to me, even though it wasn't, and a lot of the people on the bus joined in which made it that much better. Overall, that was one of the most exciting days from that trip. I don't know how to explain why, it was just perfect. Another great memory was in October. I'd only been away at college for a few months, but it felt like ages since I'd seen anyone. In October, a lot of my friends decided they were going to meet up in Dallas and hang out for a weekend. Summer and I decided to head up there, and I'm so glad we did. Seeing everyone was amazing, and even though we got back at midnight that Sunday/Monday it was totally worth it. I was having a hard time coping with college, and seeing everyone really helped. From this last semester I would probably have to go with... Our last little hoo-rah in Austin. There are so many crazy awesome memories, but there at the end it was once again perfect. People either take a while to find a place in my life, or they are immediately key to it, and this whole group was key the moment I met them. Playing games, watching movies, snacking, watching people study... Perfect! =D
TV Show: Wait, I already did this. Yea, but I forgot Doctor Who. Oh-mah-gah! Doctor Who is so amazing. It's more than just a man saving the day, traveling through space and time, and that's why I enjoy it so much. There is almost always some sort of idea I can take away from each episode to make myself better with, and that's really why I love it as much as I do.
Ginger in Said Show, and Who She Reminds Me Of: I'm just doing this to humor you Chelsea. My favorite Ginger would have to be Donna Noble. She's such a great character, and her spirit really livens the show I think. As for Amelia Pond, I'm quite the fan of her. She's just as feisty as Donna, which may be part of the reason why I like her so much. They're both great characters, and I loved when Donna was there, and currently love Amy being there. And Amelia doesn't honestly remind me of anyone in real life, but Chelsea is Amelia Pond in my phone. =D
Favorite Video Game: Kingdom Hearts. I was expecting this to be hard, and I've been thinking about it, but it really is Kingdom Hearts hands down. The story is amazing, the art is breath taking, the music is beautiful, and Sora is every bit the man I want to be... Or kid. He's who I aspire to be more like every day.
That's it with the Best/Favorites.
Let's see, I have come to terms with Corey being beautiful, I am right handed, I love swimming, I've only ever worked as a sacker at Albertsons, I have one dog named Diamond, I went to this Summer Camp thing with Google last Summer and am going to a different Google thing this Summer (on my birthday), I am mostly a Blue (Caring and such), my dream vacation would probably be to Disney World or somewhere in Japan because I love Japan and Disney, the animal that I think best describes me is a monkey because I can be serious and pensive or playful and curious, and I prefer books, music, and movies (I think each one brings something new to the board and each of those can make you re-evaluate yourself so you can grow).
Then, my mother asked, "What kind of girl would win your heart and make you throw your jacket over a puddle for her to walk across?"
I would probably throw my jacket over a puddle for most girls to walk across anyway, just to be nice. However, the girl that would win my heart would be a girl who is smart, a girl with ideas and ideals. Someone who I could learn from every time I was with them, and someone who could never cease to make me smile. That's vague, I know, but I never really think about this much, so that's what I've got.
So that's that. I've spent a couple weeks working on answering all that, and putting together my own little about me. What I write here is a compilation of who I see myself as, and who I strive to be, something I can look at and hold myself to while also being able to remember where I was at this time.
I'm way too trusting. Seriously, and I know it, but I would rather trust someone and then get burned than not trust the person I needed to. Sounds a bit off, even by my standards, but it's true. I'm not stupid trusting though, I'm not going to walk down a dark alley in a strange country and expect the crowd dressed all in black not to do anything. It's hard to explain, but you tell me you can't hang out because you have to do something for your parents, and I will believe you and hold that word as law until you post the pictures of you hanging out with someone else. Even after you do that I won't hold it against you, because I know I'm kind of a boring person sometimes, and you can have a heck of a lot more fun if you go hang out with those friends that aren't weird and... Sheltered like me. Which, I'm ok with. I like being sheltered, and I love not being the party/club type, and I couldn't imagine what I'd do to myself if I ever once actually cussed, and I'm not planning on ever drinking anything alcoholic just because I don't want to or like the stigma that comes with it, and I will never willingly put a cigarette/cigar in my mouth and smoke it, and drugs are something that you won't ever see me doing as long as I'm alive, and as for sex... When I get married, and never before that. I don't mean to sound like people who do any of this are bad people. I would say show me someone who didn't cuss, but I already know 3 other people who don't, and they're some of the coolest people ever. Anyway, I'm not here to point a finger at anyone, because every single time in my life I could point a finger at someone I know I could find several reasons to point a finger at myself. On that topic, I'm a bit of a hypocrite... So which of this am I being a hypocrite about. The not judging part... And more, but mainly the judging part. I hate it, and can't stand it, but I do it. I can't help it, I just do, and it takes a while for me to move past it and stop judging, but I usually do. Sometimes though it's a good sort of judging in a way... Like, I was able to use it to find me my friends at UT, and boy did they turn out to be the best. I'm broken though, and if it's late enough, and quiet enough I realize it, but I go on. I keep trucking, and finding things in life that mend me, and I pray when I think about it, because as much as I would love to say I always do I don't, but when I do it's from the heart, and I believe without a doubt that God is listening, and he's always going to be there when I need him. I'm terrified by the idea that one of these days I'll hit that point when I realize I'm not as smart as I thought, and I can't imagine what I'll do then, what I'll do when I don't know what comes next, how to take the next step. I've never once doubted my character though, my thoughts, my mindset. Where did all of this come from, how did I decided I would never cuss, or that I was going to accept anyone anyway they are. I've been told I'll grow up, and that one day I'll learn and wisen up, but I can't help but think every single thought that runs through my head, every single moral in me is part of God's plan. Also, I don't think there is anything unwise about seeing the best in people, in being willing to overlook something to see that inside they are a good person. I don't agree with anyone who says man is basically evil, because I believe without any sort of shadow of a doubt that man is entirely good, and it's once they enter this world that evil starts to enter them. Humans are born good, and we are essentially good, it's not until we start letting the world have it's way that evil enters into us, and it's not until you succumb to that evil that you become evil. I also believe that you can't blame someone who has only ever seen one side of the story. If someone grows up and is only ever told killing is good, and they see death around them, and every piece of writing condones it, and their parents tell them it's good, then you can't necessarily blame them. They've been manipulated, and if you were born under those conditions you would be the exact same way, and so would I. It's just a fact of life, and I will not blame them for that, rather believe that there is a way that it can be fixed. I'm missing something, I know it, but this is a big stream of consciousness with breaks thrown in as I switch the tab to gather my thoughts. It's staring me in the face, and I've already alluded to it, but I can't remember when. Acceptance! I listened to a great family friend, the type who I would trust with anything talk the other day and it broke my heart. I look up to her, and always have, but the world has made her cynical. Understandable, but saddening. She was talking about how bad public school is, and maybe it is, but I loved it, and I could very well be only remembering the good things, but that's not bad at all. Anyway, she was talking about the whole "homosexual" issue, and I don't see that as an issue any more than I see "heterosexuality", which is people who are sexually driven. Either side, it doesn't matter, if there is a love between two people, and they want to get married, and be with each other, I'm fine with that. The guys who sleep with as many people as they can, and the girls who wake up in a different bed every morning are the ones that bother me. Sorry, but I'm really not... I think that a guy kissing his girlfriend in public is fine, but I don't want to see more than that, and the same goes for two girls or two guys. As long as it's love, enjoy.
I love magic, because the possibilities are endless. Dreams. The day I stop dreaming, is the day I stop existing. I'd rather be a dreamer who is let down by life, than a realist who never moves forward because it's not realistic enough. I don't see the point of being here if it isn't to dream. And no dreamers aren't stupid. A dreamer can be as, if not more, logical than a realist any day.
I'm done. My mind is racing now, and I can't get a grip on any key points for me to hit, so I'm done. That's the crash course in me, and I'm sure it took a while to read, cause I ramble a lot. I apologize for that. I need sleep, bad. Goodnight, and I'm sorry for overloading you with so much text with this post. I should be back to normal sized posts after this. I'm really off now, night.
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