What are you doing?! You broke the pattern for your blog post titles!
Yea, I'm going to go off the Google spree, and mention a lot of the things I feel I've been neglecting on here.
For example, every time I post something it feels like I get over excited to talk about Google, or CSSI, or the people I met there, and I don't say enough about the people who have made me me. No offense to everyone from Google, but I need to back up a bit for this post.
Chelsea Fell
I could devote an entire blog to you, and still not have enough room to say how much you mean to me. I say it a lot, I'm sure, but thanks for always being there. It's quite nice knowing you'll be there. You're always there to balance me out, and maybe throw me a curve ball when I need it most. I look forward to another year of videos, and tv shows, and songs, and whatever you'll show me. I'm also looking forward to watching as you grow into the amazingly confident awesome person I know you are.
Brian Anthoné
I don't believe I've met anyone who could even come close to comparing to you. You're in a league of your own, and somehow I managed to worm my way in. You are a born leader, and if it weren't for you I don't think I would have made the decision to go to UT. Even though you didn't go, I'm glad you put the idea in my head. It is thanks to you that a world of possibilities have opened up at my feet, and I can't wait to see them through, as well as see you win a record number of awards for your movies. I'll be first in line for as many as I can, I promise you that.
Kelcey Williams
My music library would be quite lacking without you. Not to say that I only like you for your music, but it's true that you have great taste. You're super creative too. I've always been jealous of how creative you are, in a good way of course. You're definitely one of my oldest friends, and I'm glad we've kept in contact as much as we have. I look forward to another year of knowing you, and all the .
Christopher Ratliff
I don't know where to start. I'm pretty sure you've always been there, and I am so thankful! I couldn't ask for a more faithful friend than you, someone who pushes me to be better every step of the way. I'm pretty sure you've been someone I could turn to for an encouraging word whenever I needed one. You're gonna do great things. I know you are.
Four friends, almost four hours. Sounds about right. Haha.
I'm probably gonna go partake in this get together that is happening right now. I hope that Chris's party goes well, and that everyone there has/had a ton of fun. I mean, I know you guys will so just have even more. Haha.
Adios, and unless I find time later, I'll see this thing next year. =D
http://1000awesomethings.com/2010/12/30/341-saying-see-you-next-year-to-everyone-on-new-years-eve-and-then-laughing-hysterically/
Friday, December 31, 2010
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Print "NS Google Merlin"
Sitting at Camron's house, watching Merlin.
No big deal.
Chelsea literally just sent this to me, and Camron told me to post it. =D
(camron says hi)
Today is shaping up to be really uber awesome. I woke up, played some of my DS, hung with the sister and her friends for a bit while I ate, headed over to Camron's with Chelsea to watch Merlin, and tonight at 7 I get to skype Emily Stumme!!!
It's uber awesome!
By the way, when Camron said that I was posting 8 times a week it wasn't because I said that. I'll post as often as I can, but probably not 8. Haha.
I'm off to watch some more Merlin!
We ended up watching 2 episodes of Merlin at Camron's house.
I should really stop trying to do everything at once.
Examples:
Hanging with Camron and Chelsea/Watch Merlin/Blog
And
Hang with Cody and Cong/Skype Emily Stumme/Understand Madden
So, my Skype with Emily was interesting. She may have quite the story to tell, but she got to meet my sister Linz, mi madre, Cody, Cong, and Jacob. She also got to listen to my uber competitive sister play football.
She can tell the story much better than I can I bet. Also, I could hear only parts of what she said for some reason, although I made out most of it.
I really miss being there, and not having to talk through a computer.
But soft, what light through yonder window breaks?
It is the East, and Juliet is the Sun.
Arise fair Sun, and kill the envious Moon
Who is already sick and pale with grief
That thou her maid art far more fair than she.
Love ya Emily, and hope that brought back memories. Haha. =D
It's almost the year of FUSE, when I will once again see the coolest nerds ever!
I'll definitely post something tomorrow, before midnight, and maybe something on the dot. We'll see how crazy my party gets. Haha! Yea right!
=P
Love you guys, and can't wait to spend another awesome year on this planet!
Go out there, and finish 2010 on a great note, and start 2011 with an even better one. =D
No big deal.
Chelsea literally just sent this to me, and Camron told me to post it. =D
(camron says hi)
Today is shaping up to be really uber awesome. I woke up, played some of my DS, hung with the sister and her friends for a bit while I ate, headed over to Camron's with Chelsea to watch Merlin, and tonight at 7 I get to skype Emily Stumme!!!
It's uber awesome!
By the way, when Camron said that I was posting 8 times a week it wasn't because I said that. I'll post as often as I can, but probably not 8. Haha.
I'm off to watch some more Merlin!
We ended up watching 2 episodes of Merlin at Camron's house.
I should really stop trying to do everything at once.
Examples:
Hanging with Camron and Chelsea/Watch Merlin/Blog
And
Hang with Cody and Cong/Skype Emily Stumme/Understand Madden
So, my Skype with Emily was interesting. She may have quite the story to tell, but she got to meet my sister Linz, mi madre, Cody, Cong, and Jacob. She also got to listen to my uber competitive sister play football.
She can tell the story much better than I can I bet. Also, I could hear only parts of what she said for some reason, although I made out most of it.
I really miss being there, and not having to talk through a computer.
But soft, what light through yonder window breaks?
It is the East, and Juliet is the Sun.
Arise fair Sun, and kill the envious Moon
Who is already sick and pale with grief
That thou her maid art far more fair than she.
Love ya Emily, and hope that brought back memories. Haha. =D
It's almost the year of FUSE, when I will once again see the coolest nerds ever!
I'll definitely post something tomorrow, before midnight, and maybe something on the dot. We'll see how crazy my party gets. Haha! Yea right!
=P
Love you guys, and can't wait to spend another awesome year on this planet!
Go out there, and finish 2010 on a great note, and start 2011 with an even better one. =D
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Print "NS Google Curfew"
So, the past couple days happened.
Yay, you're caught up.
Just kidding.
Umm... I saw The Fighter. It was good. The acting was great, very well done, and the story was good too. =D
This post will go back to include the night I saw The Fighter, but for now I'm going to jump to a few hours go.
So, my Tuesday ended with me going over to Emily's house to hang out with her, and Stickley, and Chelsea, and Preslie, and Brison. Good times!
I got to listen to talk about shows I don't/won't/can't watch, and then we played Bananagrams, and Phase 10, and Scattergories. We watched Preslie fit 27 Olives in her mouth. That was entertaining.
My reason for blogging stems from my departure, however. It was 11:45, and we had just finished up round 2 of Scattergories. I judged that if I left by 11:45 I would be home by 12, which is when I was told to be home by.
So, I tell them, "Hey, I gotta go."
To which I get, "Don't your parents know you're eighteen?"
Notice the correct use of your/you're. =D
No offense to said person. None what so ever.
As I was driving home I thought about it more and more, and realized that that kinda bothers. I did it again, and watched Dr Who before posting this, and lost my exact train of thought... Haha.
I don't think anywhere there is this license you are given when you turn eighteen that says, "You can completely disregard what your parents say, because you're eighteen."
I know this isn't what is intended, but it's been tossed around several times, and that is sort of the vibe I get from it. This sense that as an 18 year old "adult" you can make any choice you want to. Which, you don't have to be 18 to make your own mind up, but... You know.
I think my parents may be on to something though. I dunno, I turned out pretty alright. They care, and trust me, and I value that trust. I'm not gonna throw it out so I can play scattergories a bit longer.
And it's not like I can't ever stay out. I stayed out, after watching The Fighter, at Chris' house, and played games till 3:30 ish in the morning. I just got the ok for it from the parents before doing it.
I dunno, that seemed a lot more revalationy when I was driving home, pre-Dr Who. Haha.
I got to talk to Riekenberg a lot today. We met up at 1:30, and stayed and talked till like... 4 ish. It was nice to talk to him, about college and life and such. It seems like my civilian life doesn't vary from his too much. With a few exceptions, of course. I think it was nice for both of us to see that we weren't strange outcasts or something like that. Haha.
Ummm... So that's it for this post.
Hope you guys have a great day, and week, and life in general.
Also, it's almost 2011. Woot.
Yay, you're caught up.
Just kidding.
Umm... I saw The Fighter. It was good. The acting was great, very well done, and the story was good too. =D
This post will go back to include the night I saw The Fighter, but for now I'm going to jump to a few hours go.
So, my Tuesday ended with me going over to Emily's house to hang out with her, and Stickley, and Chelsea, and Preslie, and Brison. Good times!
I got to listen to talk about shows I don't/won't/can't watch, and then we played Bananagrams, and Phase 10, and Scattergories. We watched Preslie fit 27 Olives in her mouth. That was entertaining.
My reason for blogging stems from my departure, however. It was 11:45, and we had just finished up round 2 of Scattergories. I judged that if I left by 11:45 I would be home by 12, which is when I was told to be home by.
So, I tell them, "Hey, I gotta go."
To which I get, "Don't your parents know you're eighteen?"
Notice the correct use of your/you're. =D
No offense to said person. None what so ever.
As I was driving home I thought about it more and more, and realized that that kinda bothers. I did it again, and watched Dr Who before posting this, and lost my exact train of thought... Haha.
I don't think anywhere there is this license you are given when you turn eighteen that says, "You can completely disregard what your parents say, because you're eighteen."
I know this isn't what is intended, but it's been tossed around several times, and that is sort of the vibe I get from it. This sense that as an 18 year old "adult" you can make any choice you want to. Which, you don't have to be 18 to make your own mind up, but... You know.
I think my parents may be on to something though. I dunno, I turned out pretty alright. They care, and trust me, and I value that trust. I'm not gonna throw it out so I can play scattergories a bit longer.
And it's not like I can't ever stay out. I stayed out, after watching The Fighter, at Chris' house, and played games till 3:30 ish in the morning. I just got the ok for it from the parents before doing it.
I dunno, that seemed a lot more revalationy when I was driving home, pre-Dr Who. Haha.
I got to talk to Riekenberg a lot today. We met up at 1:30, and stayed and talked till like... 4 ish. It was nice to talk to him, about college and life and such. It seems like my civilian life doesn't vary from his too much. With a few exceptions, of course. I think it was nice for both of us to see that we weren't strange outcasts or something like that. Haha.
Ummm... So that's it for this post.
Hope you guys have a great day, and week, and life in general.
Also, it's almost 2011. Woot.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Print "NS Google Wrap-Up"
Dernit! I could use that title later, and make it all clever and what not.
Oh vells. I can live with it. Haha.
So, Christmas is over. It was awesome. Aside from what was in the last post, I also got 2 beanies, and an Express gift card.
Well, after the family open presents time, which happened at 4:30 AM, I played some of my new game. Linz ended up falling asleep, so I too took a short nap, before waking up, and getting all nicely dressed then heading to my Aunt's house for the big celebration.
Just like Thanksgiving, we had Enchiladas. =D
It was a ton of fun, we played some Call of Duty, and opened the Family Gifts from our gift exchange. I got my grandma this:
I think I won. Haha. My uncle got me a gift card to Express, which I am mucho excited to spend.
They forced me to play the piano, which is always interesting, seeing as how I just fumble through it, but it comes out sounding decent. So, like Robo-Cop, a little bit at a time, I played through a few songs, until I got tired of the unknown Christmas songs and decided to play A Thousand Miles, or what I had memorized.
My cousin, Shaun and I then played some more Black Ops Zombies, and then we had dinner. His family opened their gifts, and then Linz and I stayed behind to play Phase 10 while my parents came home.
We stayed till 12 when we finally finished, with Shaun winning. Geeze. Haha.
It was fun, and now, my sister is leaving for the next 3 days to be in a basketball tournament. Silly sister.
Tell you guys more about what's goin on in my life later. Love you guys! =D
Oh vells. I can live with it. Haha.
So, Christmas is over. It was awesome. Aside from what was in the last post, I also got 2 beanies, and an Express gift card.
Well, after the family open presents time, which happened at 4:30 AM, I played some of my new game. Linz ended up falling asleep, so I too took a short nap, before waking up, and getting all nicely dressed then heading to my Aunt's house for the big celebration.
Just like Thanksgiving, we had Enchiladas. =D
It was a ton of fun, we played some Call of Duty, and opened the Family Gifts from our gift exchange. I got my grandma this:
I think I won. Haha. My uncle got me a gift card to Express, which I am mucho excited to spend.
They forced me to play the piano, which is always interesting, seeing as how I just fumble through it, but it comes out sounding decent. So, like Robo-Cop, a little bit at a time, I played through a few songs, until I got tired of the unknown Christmas songs and decided to play A Thousand Miles, or what I had memorized.
My cousin, Shaun and I then played some more Black Ops Zombies, and then we had dinner. His family opened their gifts, and then Linz and I stayed behind to play Phase 10 while my parents came home.
We stayed till 12 when we finally finished, with Shaun winning. Geeze. Haha.
It was fun, and now, my sister is leaving for the next 3 days to be in a basketball tournament. Silly sister.
Tell you guys more about what's goin on in my life later. Love you guys! =D
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Print "NS Google Christmas"
Late at night/Early in the morning.
Listening to random music.
Talking to friends.
I feel like I did when I was at Google, blogging at all hours of the night.
It's a good feeling.
So, I just got off my trip down memory lane. It was... Alright.
I need to get myself off of these addictions to reminding myself how sad parts of my past were. Certain conversations where I was told I was hurting people. At the same time, however, I feel as though when I do remind myself of these things it helps me to shape a better me.
This is just a preliminary post, that I will update later in the day. I just wanted to start it, because it made me think of Google. =D
So, check back later in the day, after something has actually happened. =P
That's just the presents, and the family time.
Listening to random music.
Talking to friends.
I feel like I did when I was at Google, blogging at all hours of the night.
It's a good feeling.
So, I just got off my trip down memory lane. It was... Alright.
I need to get myself off of these addictions to reminding myself how sad parts of my past were. Certain conversations where I was told I was hurting people. At the same time, however, I feel as though when I do remind myself of these things it helps me to shape a better me.
This is just a preliminary post, that I will update later in the day. I just wanted to start it, because it made me think of Google. =D
So, check back later in the day, after something has actually happened. =P
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| That's right, Bananagrams Calender. =D |
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| TomTom! For my cross-country adventures. |
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| Rockin the Headphones. |
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| New Black Velvet Vest, and awesome Navy Blue Shirt. =D |
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| Why yes, I am Aladdin. |
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| Oh no! She's squishing me! |
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| My new game, for my new... |
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| New DSi! =D |
Bout to head out to go be Mexican, eat some Enchiladas, you know how it is. =D
Hope everyone is having an equally awesome Christmas!
Friday, December 24, 2010
Print "NS Google Eve Numero Uno"
December twenty-fourth. Christmas Eve.
Wow.
I don't know what it is, but I find that every time this day comes it feels like it's been way more than a year since the last Christmas Eve. Time baffles me, because I would swear to you this semester flew by quicker than any semester I've ever had before it. How did so many things happen in such a short span of time?
Then I think back to the Summer. How it's been a billion years since I left California, a billion and one years since I struggled through my final "interview" as everyone was leaving, a billion and two years since I made Matchzilla with Brittany and Linda, a billion and three years since I roamed San Francisco, a billion and four years since I first played Bananagrams, a billion and five years since I watched Where The Wild Things Are with Beth on the plane to California, and a billion and six years since I left Amarillo to start the journey to California.
Then I think back further, to the Summer before Google, to Graduation, to the entire school year. It feels like it's been... I won't even try to put a time on this, but it's been ridiculous how long ago I walked across that stage at Graduation, and even longer to when I sang in choir, or played in band, or marched!
Time is strange, but it always goes forward. It speeds up, and slows down, and expands, and shrinks, but always keeps you on this path, where you can't relive the past, you can't change it, but you can add to it. That's where we come in. We're constantly adding to the past. Appending, if you will.
All these events add up and define who we are, how we got here, and why we got here.
It always happens. I always get distracted. I look for a poem, that I keep telling myself I'm going to show to the one person I wrote it for, and instead find myself remembering things I wish never happened.
If there is anything I truly want to accomplish with this blog, it is a sense of trust, that you can read exactly what I'm feeling, and it's not just a mask of emotions I'm putting here for you, for me.
Just understand that sometimes I might need to do some ranting on here, or venting. It's healthy for me, and doesn't have to bog anyone else down that way. I'll usually warn you too, before I go to far into a vent, like I'm about to. So, look for the row of ~~ if you don't want to mess with that. Haha.
I'm not exactly happy with my faltering friendship. There's one in particular, and a day doesn't go by that I don't think of how long it's been since we've talked. It might be good, for other friendships, but I'm not really happy with it. Umm... yea, so there's my one bit of unhappiness for the post.
So, I'm excited for tomorrow. I can't wait for my mom, and dad to open the gifts Linz and I picked for them. I also want to see how my grandma reacts to hers. It's going to be pretty awesome.
Also, since I am human, I'm kinda excited to get my gifts too. =P
Wow.
I don't know what it is, but I find that every time this day comes it feels like it's been way more than a year since the last Christmas Eve. Time baffles me, because I would swear to you this semester flew by quicker than any semester I've ever had before it. How did so many things happen in such a short span of time?
Then I think back to the Summer. How it's been a billion years since I left California, a billion and one years since I struggled through my final "interview" as everyone was leaving, a billion and two years since I made Matchzilla with Brittany and Linda, a billion and three years since I roamed San Francisco, a billion and four years since I first played Bananagrams, a billion and five years since I watched Where The Wild Things Are with Beth on the plane to California, and a billion and six years since I left Amarillo to start the journey to California.
Then I think back further, to the Summer before Google, to Graduation, to the entire school year. It feels like it's been... I won't even try to put a time on this, but it's been ridiculous how long ago I walked across that stage at Graduation, and even longer to when I sang in choir, or played in band, or marched!
Time is strange, but it always goes forward. It speeds up, and slows down, and expands, and shrinks, but always keeps you on this path, where you can't relive the past, you can't change it, but you can add to it. That's where we come in. We're constantly adding to the past. Appending, if you will.
All these events add up and define who we are, how we got here, and why we got here.
It always happens. I always get distracted. I look for a poem, that I keep telling myself I'm going to show to the one person I wrote it for, and instead find myself remembering things I wish never happened.
If there is anything I truly want to accomplish with this blog, it is a sense of trust, that you can read exactly what I'm feeling, and it's not just a mask of emotions I'm putting here for you, for me.
Just understand that sometimes I might need to do some ranting on here, or venting. It's healthy for me, and doesn't have to bog anyone else down that way. I'll usually warn you too, before I go to far into a vent, like I'm about to. So, look for the row of ~~ if you don't want to mess with that. Haha.
I'm not exactly happy with my faltering friendship. There's one in particular, and a day doesn't go by that I don't think of how long it's been since we've talked. It might be good, for other friendships, but I'm not really happy with it. Umm... yea, so there's my one bit of unhappiness for the post.
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So, I'm excited for tomorrow. I can't wait for my mom, and dad to open the gifts Linz and I picked for them. I also want to see how my grandma reacts to hers. It's going to be pretty awesome.
Also, since I am human, I'm kinda excited to get my gifts too. =P
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Print "NS Google Matschek"
I have taken over William's blog.
First order of business.
We have got to fix the delay in the posting. I looked on here and he hasn't posted (I have a text message) within the same week in any of his posts. Trust me, you don't really need to go check...I already told you it's true.
Anyway's, he has agreed to publicly announce (and this is his announcement) to post on his blog 8 times a week. (another text message). Which means that you can expect a new blog post every day and on Sundays twice a day. William tells me that it takes him over an hour to write a blog because he get's distracted. That means he is going to figure something out because I don't think he can find that much free time during college. But don't worry. He will be posting 8 times a week, he promised me.
Second.
He plans on changing the theme once a month. That's not often, but at least I won't have to stare at the same image every time I get on to find that he hasn't updated his blog. (I don't have a text) It's a double pathetic.
Third.
I have writer's block so there isn't going to be a third.
Fourth.
He says I can steal a file or two off of his computer, but I don't have any way of copying it right now...so I am just stealing his computer, so he might have trouble updating his blog 8 times a week until after Christmas break (he will be pardoned during this period)
Fifth (and final).
If William fails to post 8 times in one week, he has agreed to do a green-freindly punishment that is selected for him by the first one to comment on his failed attempt. (Punishment examples recycling, picking up trash at the park, and baking cookies for me)
First order of business.
We have got to fix the delay in the posting. I looked on here and he hasn't posted (I have a text message) within the same week in any of his posts. Trust me, you don't really need to go check...I already told you it's true.
Anyway's, he has agreed to publicly announce (and this is his announcement) to post on his blog 8 times a week. (another text message). Which means that you can expect a new blog post every day and on Sundays twice a day. William tells me that it takes him over an hour to write a blog because he get's distracted. That means he is going to figure something out because I don't think he can find that much free time during college. But don't worry. He will be posting 8 times a week, he promised me.
Second.
He plans on changing the theme once a month. That's not often, but at least I won't have to stare at the same image every time I get on to find that he hasn't updated his blog. (I don't have a text) It's a double pathetic.
Third.
I have writer's block so there isn't going to be a third.
Fourth.
He says I can steal a file or two off of his computer, but I don't have any way of copying it right now...so I am just stealing his computer, so he might have trouble updating his blog 8 times a week until after Christmas break (he will be pardoned during this period)
Fifth (and final).
If William fails to post 8 times in one week, he has agreed to do a green-freindly punishment that is selected for him by the first one to comment on his failed attempt. (Punishment examples recycling, picking up trash at the park, and baking cookies for me)
Monday, December 20, 2010
Print "NS Google Thought"
"She's removing herself from the equation." - Flynn
So, I just got back from watching Tron: Legacy.
...
I did it again. I can't seem to stop myself from thinking, unless I want to make note of what it is I'm thinking about. For example:
Tron. Good movie, definitely should see it. Maybe not 3D, but that's a different story for a different day.
I judge things based on how much they make me think. If I can watch a movie, and find myself constantly growing, constantly adapting to the ideas, then it is good. Movies that do that tend to make me think for a while afterwards. Usually the ride home.
I know what some of the general things I thought about whilst driving home. I thought about me, and my friends, and my family. Vague? I know, but for the most part that's all I can remember.
For some reason, when I let my mind roam unbounded I find I get distracted easier. It's almost like my mind is so spread out in unbridled thought that as soon as I find something solid, something tangible, I go into this sort of haze where that is my world for a moment.
This makes no sense, right? I'm trying, so bear with me.
The only time I can ever let my brain relax is during that time. The time when the only thing I'm thinking about is whatever solid thing has caught my mind for that short distraction. I never stay distracted for long, it's usually a few minutes, but it's enough to make me forget everything I wanted to say.
I think it was something about being selfless. Which is definitely something I would want to talk about, and something that makes sense based on my quote from Tron. The problem, however, is that I don't remember what it was exactly, and I'd rather not make an entire post that said, "Be selfless."
Instead, I'm waiting until I can do a legit post, and talk about being selfless more. This post, is more of a... Get to know me post. =D
Love you guys, and Christmas is just around the corner!
So, I just got back from watching Tron: Legacy.
...
I did it again. I can't seem to stop myself from thinking, unless I want to make note of what it is I'm thinking about. For example:
Tron. Good movie, definitely should see it. Maybe not 3D, but that's a different story for a different day.
I judge things based on how much they make me think. If I can watch a movie, and find myself constantly growing, constantly adapting to the ideas, then it is good. Movies that do that tend to make me think for a while afterwards. Usually the ride home.
I know what some of the general things I thought about whilst driving home. I thought about me, and my friends, and my family. Vague? I know, but for the most part that's all I can remember.
For some reason, when I let my mind roam unbounded I find I get distracted easier. It's almost like my mind is so spread out in unbridled thought that as soon as I find something solid, something tangible, I go into this sort of haze where that is my world for a moment.
This makes no sense, right? I'm trying, so bear with me.
The only time I can ever let my brain relax is during that time. The time when the only thing I'm thinking about is whatever solid thing has caught my mind for that short distraction. I never stay distracted for long, it's usually a few minutes, but it's enough to make me forget everything I wanted to say.
I think it was something about being selfless. Which is definitely something I would want to talk about, and something that makes sense based on my quote from Tron. The problem, however, is that I don't remember what it was exactly, and I'd rather not make an entire post that said, "Be selfless."
Instead, I'm waiting until I can do a legit post, and talk about being selfless more. This post, is more of a... Get to know me post. =D
Love you guys, and Christmas is just around the corner!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Print "NS Google Hope"
Ok, so I blogged yesterday, but the substance of this blog is a billion times more important.
I hope that by the end of this you will share it with as many people as you can. My hope is that after reading this you too will feel the emotions that I am currently feeling.
If you know me, you know I've had a great life. Don't misread any of this. I don't think I would change anything about me, or my experiences, because everything I've done has helped to build me as the person I am today. To be a little vain, I like who I am.
What I want though is for you to understand the intense emotions I am currently feeling. There is something about today, and I don't know what it is, or why today, but I know this is right.
I finally listened to Katy Perry's song Firework, and to truly understand this I have to give some back story.
I don't like Lady Gaga. I don't like Ke$ha (I hate spelling it with the $). I usually dislike Katy Perry, but not as much as the rest of them.
Reasons?
First, I despise what they choose to sing about. I'm a man of morals, and have a bad habit of disliking someone who is immoral. Don't take that the wrong way. If you want to, shoot me a message. William.Combs@hotmail.com . That's the one I check all the time, and I would love to get into that with you, but that's not the point of this blog.
Second, I don't think they're very respectable role models. This really ties in with my other point. Haha.
Ok, so you get why I don't like them.
Katy Perry, may have enforced my belief in mankind, in humanity. I'm not even a little lying here, or exaggerating.
If you know me, you also know that I have this intense belief that people are inherently good. I don't know when that came about, because for as long as I can remember I remember thinking that. I blame video games, but I think it's more of me thanking video games. I honestly love who I am.
Sometimes, however, I find myself feeling defeated I guess you could say. I'll be confronted by someone who hasn't had what I have, and I feel incapable of consoling them, because I don't know what it feels like to be in their shoes. I find myself faced with situations where everything around me screams to stop believing in people. To understand that people will be evil.
But I can't. I won't. I refuse. Till the day I die, I will harbor this love for people. It's what keeps me going in the mornings. Also, I'm not perfect. Shocker! I have days, just like any human, where everything is completely against me. Where I have to cry myself to sleep. It sucks, I know. I have days where my parents and I don't click. Where I will forcibly make them mad so they'll let Lindsey off the hook they're so mad at me. I have days where I'm tired of listening, and finally voice what I've been feeling, and things go south quick. I have seen days where all I can do is hold Lindsey, and pray that she gets a good night of sleep. I've had to hold things in, and pray that they stay that way.
So, you know me now. A good picture of me anyway. Me, being completely honest with you.
How does this tie in with Katy Perry?
Firework.
I have listened to that song a billion times since I heard it. It's not her usual song. It's good. I mean, really good. There is one scene in the video that gets me. It's of the boy, crouching next to his sister, while their parents argue out in the hall. That one hits home. (My parents are awesome, and love each other. They're great people.)
However, it still hits home, and I have sat here and cried while watching it.
The reason I keep watching, is because I honestly believe this will do some good. This song, will reach a ton of people, and a lot of people will be affected by it. I really like that. She is using her fame, her influence, and spreading hope to a load of people who don't know what that is.
That's what I want to be. I want to be a beacon of hope, a light in the darkness. I want to be able to be influential, just so I can spread a message of hope. I want to have money, just so I can give it away. I want a big house, just so I can offer people a place to stay for the night, free of charge. I want to walk down the streets in Austin, and be able to hand out money/food to the people who don't have anything. I want to be able to listen to the broken, and have the power to mend them.
Please, understand, that I am in a solid place right now. I'm not crying out for attention. I just want you to see me, so that you can better see my message, my plea.
Please, have hope in tomorrow. Have hope in mankind. Have hope in yourself.
That is all I have ever wanted, and all I will continue to want.
Believe in yourself, and don't ever let your light be extinguished.
I hope that by the end of this you will share it with as many people as you can. My hope is that after reading this you too will feel the emotions that I am currently feeling.
If you know me, you know I've had a great life. Don't misread any of this. I don't think I would change anything about me, or my experiences, because everything I've done has helped to build me as the person I am today. To be a little vain, I like who I am.
What I want though is for you to understand the intense emotions I am currently feeling. There is something about today, and I don't know what it is, or why today, but I know this is right.
I finally listened to Katy Perry's song Firework, and to truly understand this I have to give some back story.
I don't like Lady Gaga. I don't like Ke$ha (I hate spelling it with the $). I usually dislike Katy Perry, but not as much as the rest of them.
Reasons?
First, I despise what they choose to sing about. I'm a man of morals, and have a bad habit of disliking someone who is immoral. Don't take that the wrong way. If you want to, shoot me a message. William.Combs@hotmail.com . That's the one I check all the time, and I would love to get into that with you, but that's not the point of this blog.
Second, I don't think they're very respectable role models. This really ties in with my other point. Haha.
Ok, so you get why I don't like them.
Katy Perry, may have enforced my belief in mankind, in humanity. I'm not even a little lying here, or exaggerating.
If you know me, you also know that I have this intense belief that people are inherently good. I don't know when that came about, because for as long as I can remember I remember thinking that. I blame video games, but I think it's more of me thanking video games. I honestly love who I am.
Sometimes, however, I find myself feeling defeated I guess you could say. I'll be confronted by someone who hasn't had what I have, and I feel incapable of consoling them, because I don't know what it feels like to be in their shoes. I find myself faced with situations where everything around me screams to stop believing in people. To understand that people will be evil.
But I can't. I won't. I refuse. Till the day I die, I will harbor this love for people. It's what keeps me going in the mornings. Also, I'm not perfect. Shocker! I have days, just like any human, where everything is completely against me. Where I have to cry myself to sleep. It sucks, I know. I have days where my parents and I don't click. Where I will forcibly make them mad so they'll let Lindsey off the hook they're so mad at me. I have days where I'm tired of listening, and finally voice what I've been feeling, and things go south quick. I have seen days where all I can do is hold Lindsey, and pray that she gets a good night of sleep. I've had to hold things in, and pray that they stay that way.
So, you know me now. A good picture of me anyway. Me, being completely honest with you.
How does this tie in with Katy Perry?
Firework.
I have listened to that song a billion times since I heard it. It's not her usual song. It's good. I mean, really good. There is one scene in the video that gets me. It's of the boy, crouching next to his sister, while their parents argue out in the hall. That one hits home. (My parents are awesome, and love each other. They're great people.)
However, it still hits home, and I have sat here and cried while watching it.
The reason I keep watching, is because I honestly believe this will do some good. This song, will reach a ton of people, and a lot of people will be affected by it. I really like that. She is using her fame, her influence, and spreading hope to a load of people who don't know what that is.
That's what I want to be. I want to be a beacon of hope, a light in the darkness. I want to be able to be influential, just so I can spread a message of hope. I want to have money, just so I can give it away. I want a big house, just so I can offer people a place to stay for the night, free of charge. I want to walk down the streets in Austin, and be able to hand out money/food to the people who don't have anything. I want to be able to listen to the broken, and have the power to mend them.
Please, understand, that I am in a solid place right now. I'm not crying out for attention. I just want you to see me, so that you can better see my message, my plea.
Please, have hope in tomorrow. Have hope in mankind. Have hope in yourself.
That is all I have ever wanted, and all I will continue to want.
Believe in yourself, and don't ever let your light be extinguished.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Print "NS Google School"
High school that is.
Yes, I am that cool kid who comes home from college and spends a full day hanging out at his old high school. Sadly, it was Semester test week, so everyone is all busy, but I think I can find some time this week to just hang out with some of them.
I got to see a lot of teachers though, and it was awesome.
I was actually telling Chels about my day, and I realized that I didn't really document everything that happened, just sort of screenshots of the events. It kind of saddens me, but there was a lot to take in.
Here's how I portrayed it to Chelsea:
Well, first it felt kind of weird walking the halls, since they're all testing and what not I felt like I was just sorta in the way, but!!! It was really good, I got to see pretty much all the teachers I wanted to, and got to sit in on Dunn's band for a bit. They're playing Hey Ya! by OutKast. I think they got it today It didn't get to the mallet part or I woulda joined in since Dunn asked if I wanted to. umm... He was giving on of his famed "You don't believe in yourself, but I do" speeches. it still made me feel bad and I wanted to punch some fools. Tyler made fun of me for being back, after staring at me, ummm... sorry... I'm blanking. ummm... so I also saw my web design teacher, and before this I saw Talley and Harvel in the morning before freedom singers left for their gig. I saw Prough for a bit, but she was giving a test. I hung with Cline, and King for a period, they were talking about diets, it was interesting. I talked to Herr for a bit, and then went back to... no! found Steevie when she showed up and went to McDonalds with her. Loretta came in while we were there. kelc was in the car still hyped up on morphine, so, I said hey, and that I wouldn't make her talk. we went back to school. I went to... Choir room? yea, hung with Stef and Kristen during lunch. then Cody came, and we went to Herr's. we talked for a bit, but left before they started their test, then went to King's. Cline had a test. went to Dunstan's, but she wasn't there, then saw Dunn on the way back to the choir room and he asked if I wanted to hear what they were thinking would be the show next year. it sounds legit, by the way. I didn't really get to just talk to Dunn a lot, then Cong showed up and we hung in the choir room, then cong and I went to Herr's, then... left.
Really poor, I know. It was so awesome though! I miss all of my teachers, and all of my friends who still go there.
Today was awesome. You may not be reading that, but it was. So much, and my mind is still blown by it. Can I not go back to college?
I kid, sorta. I'm going back, without a doubt, but I love the atmosphere here. =D
Yes, I am that cool kid who comes home from college and spends a full day hanging out at his old high school. Sadly, it was Semester test week, so everyone is all busy, but I think I can find some time this week to just hang out with some of them.
I got to see a lot of teachers though, and it was awesome.
I was actually telling Chels about my day, and I realized that I didn't really document everything that happened, just sort of screenshots of the events. It kind of saddens me, but there was a lot to take in.
Here's how I portrayed it to Chelsea:
Well, first it felt kind of weird walking the halls, since they're all testing and what not I felt like I was just sorta in the way, but!!! It was really good, I got to see pretty much all the teachers I wanted to, and got to sit in on Dunn's band for a bit. They're playing Hey Ya! by OutKast. I think they got it today It didn't get to the mallet part or I woulda joined in since Dunn asked if I wanted to. umm... He was giving on of his famed "You don't believe in yourself, but I do" speeches. it still made me feel bad and I wanted to punch some fools. Tyler made fun of me for being back, after staring at me, ummm... sorry... I'm blanking. ummm... so I also saw my web design teacher, and before this I saw Talley and Harvel in the morning before freedom singers left for their gig. I saw Prough for a bit, but she was giving a test. I hung with Cline, and King for a period, they were talking about diets, it was interesting. I talked to Herr for a bit, and then went back to... no! found Steevie when she showed up and went to McDonalds with her. Loretta came in while we were there. kelc was in the car still hyped up on morphine, so, I said hey, and that I wouldn't make her talk. we went back to school. I went to... Choir room? yea, hung with Stef and Kristen during lunch. then Cody came, and we went to Herr's. we talked for a bit, but left before they started their test, then went to King's. Cline had a test. went to Dunstan's, but she wasn't there, then saw Dunn on the way back to the choir room and he asked if I wanted to hear what they were thinking would be the show next year. it sounds legit, by the way. I didn't really get to just talk to Dunn a lot, then Cong showed up and we hung in the choir room, then cong and I went to Herr's, then... left.
Really poor, I know. It was so awesome though! I miss all of my teachers, and all of my friends who still go there.
Today was awesome. You may not be reading that, but it was. So much, and my mind is still blown by it. Can I not go back to college?
I kid, sorta. I'm going back, without a doubt, but I love the atmosphere here. =D
Monday, December 13, 2010
Print "NS Google Finals"
So, I've been meaning to blog since I made that last one.
Sorry it wasn't really anything but me ranting. I do that quite often, and then halfway through it I decide I don't want to bug you so I stop. Then when you read it it's a half rant. So, you probably had a bit of trouble following my lack of structured ranting. Haha.
Since then though, I've been better. Went through finals and feel good about them. I got 109/115 (94ish) on my programming final. Woot woot! Shout out to Google who really helped with everything I learned this semester.
I think my logic one went well. Fun story, on my Logic final and my programming final there was exactly one question which I was confused about. So, I'm shooting for about a 93 on Logic (That's also what I calculated during the test.)
My Calculus final was a beast. I was under leveled I think, which may have been due to the entire game being easy up until the boss before the final boss, and the final boss himself. Which is only sort of true, because the three questions which threw me off were:
Show that prove for (arctan(x))'.
A Maximization problem.
The derivative of X^(2X).
Boo!
Haha.
Anyway, I'm halfway home, which is awesome. =D
I love me some Christmas time! Bring on the family, and friends! =D
I promise I'll have a vlog up soon guys.
Also, Have a Merry Marvel Monday!
Sorry it wasn't really anything but me ranting. I do that quite often, and then halfway through it I decide I don't want to bug you so I stop. Then when you read it it's a half rant. So, you probably had a bit of trouble following my lack of structured ranting. Haha.
Since then though, I've been better. Went through finals and feel good about them. I got 109/115 (94ish) on my programming final. Woot woot! Shout out to Google who really helped with everything I learned this semester.
I think my logic one went well. Fun story, on my Logic final and my programming final there was exactly one question which I was confused about. So, I'm shooting for about a 93 on Logic (That's also what I calculated during the test.)
My Calculus final was a beast. I was under leveled I think, which may have been due to the entire game being easy up until the boss before the final boss, and the final boss himself. Which is only sort of true, because the three questions which threw me off were:
Show that prove for (arctan(x))'.
A Maximization problem.
The derivative of X^(2X).
Boo!
Haha.
Anyway, I'm halfway home, which is awesome. =D
I love me some Christmas time! Bring on the family, and friends! =D
I promise I'll have a vlog up soon guys.
Also, Have a Merry Marvel Monday!
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Print "NS Google Frustrations"
Hey there my loyal readers!
Don't ask, I just wanted a new way to say hey. Haha.
So earlier in this week I was talking to a good friend. She's still in high school, and I was asking her how our Science Bowl* team was doing. She informed me that she hadn't been able to make the meetings because of work, and some other things. She then informed me that she had made a few, and that they weren't as good as when I was there.
They got a new coach this year, who isn't doing as good a job with it as our coach last year, and the student involvement was less than it was last year. This saddens me, because my Science Bowl team was really into it. We started in 8th grade, and continued up until 12th grade. We were really involved in it, and tried to make it better every year by doing something to make it better. Last year, I even got all three teams shirts, and it was a lot of fun.
I guess, it's just sad seeing things that you were a part of dwindle. Sad face.
On that same note, I am angered by Tascosa (My high school if you didn't know.) Genuinely upset, and flustered, and I don't even know how to word it I'm so mad.
Facebook has recently become home to two pages, Smashorpass Rebels and another with I won't name because it contains a cuss word. Usually, I just ignore pages that pop up, but this one really irks me. I don't want to get into it right now, I just spent 30 minutes trying to make my vlog about it, and I think I'd rather let that be it.
I will say, however, that when people do things with the intention of hurting someone it really angers me.
On a brighter note, I'm done with classes for this semester. I just have 3 finals, one on Wednesday, and one next Saturday, and then I'll be done. I'm going home on the 13th, and I'm really excited about it. I'll be home for a little over a month, I get to spend a week-ish at Tascosa talking to teachers, and then some of the students that I know there.
It will be awesome. I apologize for this really short post. With the whole Smash or Pass thing I'm really out of it. I apologize, and I promise that my next post will be a better one.
I love you guys, and hope everything is going well!
* Science Bowl is a competition involving two teams. Each team has 5 members, 4 contestants and an alternate who can switch in at the half. In said competition they ask Math and Science related questions, and then the teams answer questions, and get point. The team with the most points wins. It's really a lot of fun I promise.
Don't ask, I just wanted a new way to say hey. Haha.
So earlier in this week I was talking to a good friend. She's still in high school, and I was asking her how our Science Bowl* team was doing. She informed me that she hadn't been able to make the meetings because of work, and some other things. She then informed me that she had made a few, and that they weren't as good as when I was there.
They got a new coach this year, who isn't doing as good a job with it as our coach last year, and the student involvement was less than it was last year. This saddens me, because my Science Bowl team was really into it. We started in 8th grade, and continued up until 12th grade. We were really involved in it, and tried to make it better every year by doing something to make it better. Last year, I even got all three teams shirts, and it was a lot of fun.
I guess, it's just sad seeing things that you were a part of dwindle. Sad face.
On that same note, I am angered by Tascosa (My high school if you didn't know.) Genuinely upset, and flustered, and I don't even know how to word it I'm so mad.
Facebook has recently become home to two pages, Smashorpass Rebels and another with I won't name because it contains a cuss word. Usually, I just ignore pages that pop up, but this one really irks me. I don't want to get into it right now, I just spent 30 minutes trying to make my vlog about it, and I think I'd rather let that be it.
I will say, however, that when people do things with the intention of hurting someone it really angers me.
On a brighter note, I'm done with classes for this semester. I just have 3 finals, one on Wednesday, and one next Saturday, and then I'll be done. I'm going home on the 13th, and I'm really excited about it. I'll be home for a little over a month, I get to spend a week-ish at Tascosa talking to teachers, and then some of the students that I know there.
It will be awesome. I apologize for this really short post. With the whole Smash or Pass thing I'm really out of it. I apologize, and I promise that my next post will be a better one.
I love you guys, and hope everything is going well!
* Science Bowl is a competition involving two teams. Each team has 5 members, 4 contestants and an alternate who can switch in at the half. In said competition they ask Math and Science related questions, and then the teams answer questions, and get point. The team with the most points wins. It's really a lot of fun I promise.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Print "NS Google I Got Nothing Clever"
Hey there! It's been a while, and I apologize to you, the reader, who for some reason in my head checks this thing as obsessive compulsively as I do.
Life is great. Which may seem kind of vague, but it's true. I'm nearing the end of semester numero uno, and I think aside from a few things here and there I'm proud of what I've done here.
I struggled with the distance, and found that even though I wanted so desperately to quit it wasn't even something that I considered as a possibility.
I missed my friends, and found that I really don't have to lose contact with them, and that I can, in fact, form new friends here at college who can be awesome like my friends from Amarillo.
I failed NaNoWriMo, but got myself started on another novel, which I do believe one day will be finished and will actually be a good one.
I questioned why I think a lot of the ways I do, and found that I'm just a crazy kid who has a ridiculous sense of ideals and morals but knows that in the end God's got the whole story planned out, waiting for me to get out there and make him proud.
I lost my brother for certain holidays, but gained an awesome sister, and families here in Austin, who are awesome enough to put up with me from time to time.
I spent 15 hours driving, but had one of the best days I've had in a while.
I got asked if I wanted a "traveling job" and I'm pretty sure it was trafficking some sorts of drugs, but... well that was just kind of funny/awkward... funnward? =P
I realized that there wasn't enough time to do everything that I wanted to, but decided that was the reason I should live to the fullest.
I have cried myself to sleep a few times, but in a healthy way and it has actually helped me to mature and grow.
I have pulled several all nighters, but decided after the first one that they were all worth it, and I wouldn't trade them for anything.
I slept through my class, when a big paper was due, but got it turned in because my teacher said he'd take it.
I like to think, that this semester has made me a much better me. A stronger person, with a stronger will, and a stronger soul, that is prepared to take on the next few years along with life itself shouting, "BRING IT" every time it tries to knock me down. I'm kind of cocky when it comes to me having a happy life... Is that a bad thing? Nah!
I hope you guys had an awesome Thanksgiving! Love you all!
P.S. I have managed to text a list of 50 or so people every other day (usually), wishing them great days, and as far as I know I haven't repeated myself too bad yet. It makes me happy just sending the text, and getting responses completely seals the deal. =P
Life is great. Which may seem kind of vague, but it's true. I'm nearing the end of semester numero uno, and I think aside from a few things here and there I'm proud of what I've done here.
I struggled with the distance, and found that even though I wanted so desperately to quit it wasn't even something that I considered as a possibility.
I missed my friends, and found that I really don't have to lose contact with them, and that I can, in fact, form new friends here at college who can be awesome like my friends from Amarillo.
I failed NaNoWriMo, but got myself started on another novel, which I do believe one day will be finished and will actually be a good one.
I questioned why I think a lot of the ways I do, and found that I'm just a crazy kid who has a ridiculous sense of ideals and morals but knows that in the end God's got the whole story planned out, waiting for me to get out there and make him proud.
I lost my brother for certain holidays, but gained an awesome sister, and families here in Austin, who are awesome enough to put up with me from time to time.
I spent 15 hours driving, but had one of the best days I've had in a while.
I got asked if I wanted a "traveling job" and I'm pretty sure it was trafficking some sorts of drugs, but... well that was just kind of funny/awkward... funnward? =P
I realized that there wasn't enough time to do everything that I wanted to, but decided that was the reason I should live to the fullest.
I have cried myself to sleep a few times, but in a healthy way and it has actually helped me to mature and grow.
I have pulled several all nighters, but decided after the first one that they were all worth it, and I wouldn't trade them for anything.
I slept through my class, when a big paper was due, but got it turned in because my teacher said he'd take it.
I like to think, that this semester has made me a much better me. A stronger person, with a stronger will, and a stronger soul, that is prepared to take on the next few years along with life itself shouting, "BRING IT" every time it tries to knock me down. I'm kind of cocky when it comes to me having a happy life... Is that a bad thing? Nah!
I hope you guys had an awesome Thanksgiving! Love you all!
P.S. I have managed to text a list of 50 or so people every other day (usually), wishing them great days, and as far as I know I haven't repeated myself too bad yet. It makes me happy just sending the text, and getting responses completely seals the deal. =P
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